An embarrassing situation

I recorded this video on Sept. 19, 2009. It really took a lot of soul searching to decide if I would mention this embarrassing situation. Part of me fears being so open about this. Releasing this is something that I hope I won't regret later. I was not going to publish this but then I remembered my words in my first posting. 'The good, bad and the ugly. This is still something that I am struggling with. There actually was a period of time where it almost appeared as if it was resolved. Then it reappeared. The diminished hopes and aspirations are still there. Of course my hope is that someday it will be resolved. I do use the wrong word at one point. I say 'past' where I meant to say 'future.' Not a big deal but I want you to know that I was aware of this slip of tongue.